hello universe,
i had this blog for a while, but decided to go back on it and put some use to it (:
first off I just want to clear off that this blog is mainly for putting up graphics such as icons, backgrounds, layouts, and anything else ;]
And, I also will be using this blog to just express my feelings and whatnot, especially for everything thats going on in my life right now. But if you want to take a look at my personal blog, or add me as a contact or whatever...click here.
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So this is my actual like "blog" part of this entry, i just have that little thing up there for , whatever.
Sooo, lately alot has been going on. Not event-wise, but mind/feelings/life. So my summer has basically had really fun times, and really nerve-wrecking and bad times. So i've lived in this same town/area, for about 3 or 4 years..then near the ending of the school year, I found out we had to move. That basically brought my whole entire world down. But at the same time I was extremely chill about it. Mainly because, I really had faith in my parents to find a place that was around. So, on the last day of school....I was having a great day, being with friends, capturing the moment, and just being there. Then it hit me, at lunch time..I got a letter from the secretary telling me that im transfering. I was veery upset. I told most of my friends and it wasn't until the end of the day that my friends just started to breakdown. Then my own tears bursted out. When I arrived home, a million things were going through my head like : maybe I can live with my grandma? Maybe a school-bus can take me? Why haven't I been able to go to the same school for longer than at least 4 years. I just really wanted to stay. Every day I wondered, how much easier life would have been if I could have just stayed. I wouldn't sitting about crying and thinking about how effed up my life is. I've had waaay to much history there to just leave it. I mean, I had two more effing years left to graduate. And what ? I have to LEAVE? Everyday I would think to myself, why can't I just go back 5 months? Just so I could be there. The place I wanted to be at. I know its just moving, but living there means alot to me. I became who I am today there, I figured out myself [ well not fully ], i figured some of my greatest hobbies, and iv'e made sooo many friends, I cant just leave them. And everyday I get closer to the end of August, I just get more and more nervous. About going to a new school. Meeting new people. At the same time I dont want to meet new people because I dont wanna forget my other friends. I mean I know very well that i will for sure make friends, but I just...dont want too. But I just wonder....why couldn't I atleast have the chance to graduate there. I had it all planned too, I knew which highschool I wanted to go to..I just knew what I wanted life to be as a teenager. Now its gone. My parents said that when they save enough money, we'll move into a nice house, near my old school. At least, I have a possible chance of going to high school there. I just wanna stay there so bad. I dont know whats so special about being there. I mean , ive moved a bunch of times, and never cared so much till now.
I think im going to end this now, its getting very long.
-gealeih